Dipper

「 ディッパー • プリンス • 金江 」

Discord: Dipper#9942 ☆ Venmo: @PrinceDipper ☆ PSN: Starlit_Prince ★
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About Me

「 不幸の黒猫 」

  • Hihi, my name is Dipper. I was born in Yokohama, Japan but was raised in Yokosuka, Japan until about age 9 when I moved to Texas, USA. I have been "stuck" in the United States ever since. According to my 23andme, I am 50.0% Japanese, 50.0% European~ My mother is 100% Japanese and my father has ancestry mostly from the United Kingdom. When it comes to languages, I mainly speak and read in English. I can understand intermediate Japanese when it's spoken but can only really speak beginner to elementary Japanese itself. It's easier for me to translate the language to English than it is for me to go the other way around.

  • Contrary to popular belief, my name is not from Gravity Falls! Although I enjoyed the show, my name comes from the many moles and freckles on my body that resembles constellation formations! The most present and repeated of these constellations are Ursa Minor (little dipper) and Ursa Major (big dipper) and are a huge part of why I have the name that I do! It also helps that the biggest constellation on my body is the Ursa Major (big dipper) across my entire face. Other moles and freckles on my body tend to be very similar to other constellations, like Orion, and can be seen all over me. There are only a couple of marks that don't resemble constellations: 2 on my neck resemble what looks like a vampire bite and a larger beauty mark near my collar bone with a smaller mole beside it (I like to call this pair the Earth and Moon).

  • I love nicknames! Some nicknames that I respond to are: Dip/Dips/Dippy/Dip'n Dots/Anything related to my first name, Prince/Ouji, and Lucifer/Luci. I also feel comforted by royal honorifics/titles/labels such as Your Majesty, Your Highness, My Lord, My Liege, and such! These special nicknames bring me both comfort and make me feel like I am more than I feel. It helps my confidence and makes my heart feel warm and noticed.

  • I identify as a Synpath! My "kin" lists can be found here~

  • Here are some "quick" facts about me: I am... Extremely Introverted, Shy/Quiet, Open Minded, Awkward, Considerate, Friendly, Lazy, Intelligent, Anxious/Nervous, Somewhat Airheaded, Fearful/Paranoid, Extremely Pessimistic (to self), Optimistic (for others), Extremely Sensitive, Timid, Easy To Fluster, Easy To Cry (But holds back in front of others), Extremely Empathetic, Gentle, Careful, Self Conscious, Envious/Jealous, Easy to Talk to, Forgetful, and Stresses Very Easily. My favorite colors are Lavender, Baby Blue, Pastel Pink, Cream, and Maroon/Blood Red. My favorite flowers are Hydrangeas, Cherry Blossoms, and Roses (red, black, osiria, and black baccara). My eyes are Chestnut Honey in color and, in the sunlight, have gold rings just under my pupils! My vision is pretty bad so I wear contacts or glasses. Lastly: I am very tiny in height!

Current Updated Diagnoses (2021)

The section below contains my professionally diagnosed mental illnesses and other illnesses.
This is here for educational purposes so that you are aware of what to avoid bringing up. It is also important to know these things as they help explain why I do the things that I do and think the way that I think.
I am not broken, just a little sick, but I do require some patience and understanding!
Remember: mental illness is real. Do not judge others for the trauma they endured and the way that they cope or avoid things to deal with it. These are very real and must be respected. I am currently in therapy and taking medication to help!
If you don't know what something is that's listed, please try and use Google before asking as I may not want to talk about it personally.
My diagnoses are a result of a Neuropsychological evaluation given to me in 2020. Any new diagnoses that are added here are only here as a result of being officially diagnosed by a professional. I will be keeping this list up to date as I also find that having this list has been helpful for me memory-wise.
After receiving a large chunk of these diagnosis' during my Neuropsychological Evaluation given to me on 14 Feb., 13 Mar., 14 Mar., and 19 Mar. 2020, I am in therapy for my mental illnesses, have received medications from my psychiatrist, using a DreamTap device prescribed to me by my sleep therapist, and am taking sleep studies all to help me learn how to cope and live with my problems!

  • MDD (Clinical Depression) + Dysthymia

  • Generalized Anxiety Disorder + Social Anxiety

  • Neurocognitive Disorder (Difficulties with working memory)

  • Panic Disorder

  • OCD

  • Inattentive ADHD/ADD (Ring of Fire)

  • PTSD

  • Avoidant Personality Disorder with Paranoid Traits

  • Dependent Personality Disorder

  • Melancholic Personality Disorder

  • Masochistic Personality Disorder

  • Paranoid Personality Disorder

  • Sexual Trauma

  • Middle Insomnia + Terminal Insomnia

  • Central Sleep Apnea + Obstructive Sleep Apnea

  • Autism Spectrum Disorder + Misphonia

  • // Suspected Dyscalculia //

12 June 2021
As of 11 March 2021, I am no longer in therapy or any medical plan my doctors and I had due to miscommunications between my father and Tricare (the medical insurance I've had since I was a child up until I turned 23).
This portion has been written out on 12 June 2021. I was on 225mg venlafaxine and 15mg adderall. I've been weening myself slowly of my medications as I won't be able to get more refills on them without my medical insurance. According to how I split off my medication, I'll be completely unmedicated on 28 June 2021. I hope to one day be able to get some type of medical insurance again but will be unable to for a few years. I am personally not capable of balancing a full-time job and being a full-time University student, so I am currently focusing on my studies until I get my masters or doctorates in Zoology... so it's likely that I won't be receiving any help for my illnesses for a few years nor will I have any stable form of income until then. If I find jobs in between then, they will very likely be part-time jobs just so I can survive as I will be having to pay bills soon.
Originally, the plan was that when my military ID renews on the 28th of this month, I was going to renew my Tricare. It turns out, Tricare no longer renews after you turn 23. I was told by my father that everything I had was going to stay until I turned 26. This wasn't the case and now all of my plans have been thrown out of the window.
I no longer have any more medications to refill as I had hoped. The last ones I paid for were the last of them and I had no idea. I am not looking forward to being unmedicated again... especially because I know where I am mentally and emotionally.
I am honestly very heartbroken as I've been wanting to finally work on myself as I was unable to growing up. My parents were the type to believe that mental illnesses are just something you can power through and they ignored many signs I had of my ADHD and autism growing up. Due to this, I was only ever to finally seek the help I desperately needed after I stopped living with them... and it turns out I was a little too late as all of my plans have come to a crashing halt in the middle of everything. I was able to get some diagnosis' and finally try out some medications and got to feel what it was like to be able to have better control over myself than have my illnesses control me.
I hope that I can be strong enough to be able to hold over until I can get the help I need again.

Warnings

「 おうじデレ 」Do NOT interact or associate with me if you participate in any of these or feel the need to bring it up / talk about it.

DNI List
"Do not interact with me if..." list. If any of these apply to you and/or if you support any of the following, please refrain from interacting with me!

  • Pedophile / "MAP" / "NOMAP" / Lolicon / Shotacon

  • Racist / Xenophobic

  • Antisemitic

  • Sexist

  • Incest

  • Ableist (Includes "joking" or casual uses of "R/tard", "autist", etc)

  • Homophobic / Queerphobic / Anti-LGBTQIA+

  • Aphobic / Pansphobic / Enbyphobic

  • Transphobic / Truscum / Transmed / Terf

  • Exclusionist

  • Anti-kin

  • Proshipper (Fiction may not equal reality but normalizing problematic or traumatic things can normalize them. I am a victim of more than one person's proshipping habits blurring the lines between their little fantasy fiction and real life.)

  • Anti-Science

  • Victim Blamer / Victim Shamer

  • AI art (other than for memes or jokes)

  • Pro Trump, Kanye / Ye, or Elon (I don't care if you are right wing or left wing. These people spread hate and are not afraid to say things that will put groups of people in DANGER. I won't hound on you for listening to Kanye / Ye or owning a Tesla vehicle but do not interact with me if you support the PERSON themselves and what they believe in / say.)

  • If you support or sell NFT (nonfungible tokens), blockchains, web3, or anything cryptocurrency related